Questions and wondering-I can fill my mind with thoughts, questions, doubts, dreams, until my head gets so busy I forget what I'm doing. Doesn't Winnie-the-Pooh do that? Head out in search of something, get distracted and forget what his initial search was for?....thank goodness Piglet usually goes along-then he's not lost alone, searching for Wuzzles, or honey, or what to do with the stick he's carrying. Or maybe it's not Pooh, but Rabbit who gets confused, or Owl, or maybe it's Tigger bouncing around so much he's forgotten to think at all. We'll leave poor Eeyore at rest for now.
What am I supposed to be thinking about? Oh yes. Why do I take photos? If you're tired of reading already, I encourage you to skim read.
I have asked myself this question before. Why photography? I still don't know. Maybe it's just a work in progress and the "why" is really the progress and process of the work. (OMG that's a very abstract thought for an anal retentive sort like me) I know why I started taking photos. I was broken hearted and tired of no longer being a worthy musician. I needed to find a place to expel the creative energy within. I'm working at morphing my creativity from one sense to another-transferring my aural know-how to visual know-how. Indeed it is a process; at times a frustrating unnatural one. But at other times it's filled with amazement that it is really happening-that it is possible.
......but I shoot photos alone and I like that. I "see" alone, and I talk to myself when I do. I like the chase, especially when the light is golden and beautiful. Taking photos is something I do for myself, and share the results, just a little, with others.
I am frightened about my ability to keep my motivation going. I've had many dreams and passions that ran their course too quickly....they faded away. My former interests sit idle, cast aside, while photography now captures my time and energies....is it just the passion du jour? I sense my desire to shoot photos is changing; the honeymoon is winding down. I need to find what will make this a long term relationship and what will keep it away from the scrap heap of half-fulfilled interests. I wonder too what that pattern is about. Sometimes I think I'm afraid to really soar.
I wonder too much...had I mentioned that? Thanks for listening....and if you happen to see my eye around, let me know.
PS...I am trying to include my "Find Your Eye" posts as part of my photo journal page/tab. At present the page will not allow me to make multiple posts. I'm working on that. Hopefully later entries will be located under my photo journal tab. If anyone has any quick, easy-to-do hints about that....I'm all ears (pardon the pun).