Linking with Kat for Photo Heart Connection-last of the 2013 edition. Praying it goes on to 2014. It's not only a practice, it's a positive addiction.
This month was tough; really tough to choose a photo my heart connected with. Frankly, in looking thru my images, I didn't feel very connected to any of them. Photo Heart Dis-connection anyone?
I guess it's most important to be connected to yourself. Kind of like I used to tell my first grade students-it's hard to make friends if you don't like yourself first. Geez-I need to give myself my own advice sometimes. That whole everything you need to know you learned in kindergarten book may have a point.
So....here I am connecting to myself. I do like taking selfies. I share only the ones that satisfy, but each time I shoot some there are always a bunch-many deletes, and many that just hang in the files. I suppose in taking them I'm looking to figure out "who am I"? I can't speak for anyone else, but I still haven't a clue. Part of that is losing my career-my passion with music. I'm trying to re-invent myself without music as the driving force. It's hard. My mama used to dance with me in the living room when I was little. Music was always "the" passion. This re-inventing is taking a long time.
I don't know what I'm saying other than....I'm still searching. I think maybe life is a continual search. I'm not sure we ever figure it out. I am learning/accepting that I am doubly blessed. Once with the ability, or gift of musicianship, and again with "an eye"...the one that people keep telling me I have. I know it's a gift. I can hone that gift and work to make it better, but there are many times intuition takes over. Being the most non-religious person I know, I do know and appreciate that God is smiling on me....that my "eye" intuition is a gift.
Yah. So this month I'm connecting to me-on the empty fishing docks-on Christmas Eve, alone in the setting sun, getting my head swiveled toward this rusty retaining wall of orange, drenched in warm light, totally unexpectedly....yah, that's what I'm connecting with.
Thank you to all those who PHC with me. Extra special thanks to Kat for hostessing such a great meme.